Falling in Love.
To my beloved family and friends who have supported me throughout this journey. I’d like to express my utmost gratitude and thanks. I literally couldn’t have done any of this without your prayers and your support. Lately the Lord has really been convicting me with thankfulness towards those who are fighting the good fight back at home. I miss you all, and I can’t wait to see all of you.
The Lord is really been revealing the revelation of His love over me during this season of outreach. He’s really been impressing upon my heart that lovers are indeed better at work than workers. He’s been asking of me to be one that speaks to Him more than speaking about him. To be a worship leader that sings to him alone in my room, more than singing about him in front of many. To really fall in love with Him all over again.
With that being said…
The first six weeks of outreach consisted of our team staying in Southern France, in hopes of bringing the Fire and the Fragrance of Jesus Christ. For the most part, we were under the leadership of Dudley and Janet Weiner, who have devoted their lives to see revival in France. We came under them and ministered to the homeless, gypsies, and locals in general. But we were also given the freedom to minister the way our team felt lead to, and that usually involved worship and intercession in public. We were also able to encourage the body of Christ through the prophetic movement of the Holy Spirit, and with a new sound of spontaneous worship. This was especially an encouragement to the Church in France because they have been gripped with the Spirit of Religion for so long.
But the Lord wasn’t satisfied with just using us, but he was also committed to refining us. He’s been really teaching us to love one another the way Jesus loves us and showing us what real unity is. It’s taken a lot of fire to get here, but I believe he is really burning the dross away from my heart, so I could properly emit the fragrance of Christ.
We have about two weeks left in our outreach, and we are in Amsterdam. Please keep us in prayer so that we’d be faithful till the very end. I also ask that you would keep me in prayer for full health, as we are doing lots of walking. And finally, pray that the fear of man would be broken off our team so that we can be fully used by Christ.
Love and miss every one of you.
~Michael.
Add comment May 24, 2011 rocthemikee
From the Revelation of Love…
Psalm 34 on my mind, my lips, and my heart.
This will be my last blog as a student of lecture phase in Fire and Fragrance DTS. As I was sitting in the last day of lecture, I couldn’t help but think back on the last 12 weeks and what the Lord has done in me. All I could muster up were the words “thank you” over and over and over again.
After 12 weeks of incredible teaching from mothers and fathers of our faith, it all came back to week one. Everything we do comes FROM the place of love, instead of going TOWARDS love. We go from the place of intimacy to the place of obedience, instead of a place of religion to sacrifice.
Please fight with us in our next journey. I have seen too many revival meetings that emphasize presence, intimacy, and love…only to have people walk out of the door and immediately go back to striving mode. Our team is really believing for the fullness in loving our neighbors, but we believe fullness will naturally come as we “Love our God with all our hearts, all our souls, all our strength, and all our minds.” What if mission trips, short and long, really believed that our prayers were as powerful as Jesus says they are? What if we really believed that what Mary chose was truly better than Martha’s choice, and not just in 15 min QT’s but in missions trips? What would the nations look like? Please partner with us in prayer that all of the Fire and Fragrance outreach teams would choose the better everyday in our outreaches.
I am leaving tonight and will return on June 10th. We will be in South France and Amsterdam loving on God and loving on people. It has been an incredible privilege to be on this journey. Thank you so much for all of you who have partnered with me in prayer, finances, or even simple thoughts. I miss everyone so much.
Amazed,
Michael.
Add comment March 29, 2011 rocthemikee
Heavenly Reality.
Beloved!
We live in a time where the bride of Christ must learn to see heavenly reality. When Jesus was getting tempted by Satan, he said, “get behind me” because he didn’t want him to come between the gaze of the Father to the Son, and vice versa. We live in a time where we must refuse to take our eyes off the Father. We need intercessors and spirit/truth filled worshipers like never before. Talitha Kum! We can’t afford to be a bride that gets motivated for intercession by the CNN only. If news stations are the biggest motivation for us to get on our knees…boy are we in trouble. Our motivation must be the Man, Jesus Christ. Let’s live a lifestyle of intercession!
Less than three weeks until we head out to outreach. The Lord is giving me a heart for His people. I know it’s such a christian cliche, but he is giving me a heart for his people like never before. We are called to bring the light to the darkness. Luke 5:27-31. Jesus WENT OUT and saw a tax collector. He didn’t get the tax collector and bring him to his “christian meetings.” His initial action was to GO OUT. It is the sick who need a physician.
Prayer request: Continue to pray for my back. It is even better than before. I’d say it is about 90% healed. PRAISE GOD!
Funds. Today is my deadline. PLEASE prayerfully consider partnering with me. You are investing in heavenly reality and ripples that will change the course of history!
Family. Please pray for my family, the enemy has been attacking in various ways. I won’t get into details, but pray for boldness, cast out fear, bring down the peace of heaven, and ask for His guidance!
LOVE! Michael.
Add comment March 11, 2011 rocthemikee
Halfway Mark.
Time – 9:15Am
Place – Dorm
Mood – For the Spirit and the Bride say COME!
It’s approximately the halfway mark, and it’s been a crazy ride. Our Father has been releasing destinies all over the campus this quarter. Don’t get me wrong, we walk on water because Jesus is there, not for the sake of walking on water. However, Jesus does call us to walk on water and come to Him. He is releasing destinies all over this generation that will require a faith even greater than one that is needed to walk on water. Even so, we must never forget, that it’s to get to where Jesus is.
The Lord clearly told me that this would be a season of transition, and that there would be absolutely no turning back. As I see various things flesh out, it’s exhilaratingly scary. To know that I am meeting people and making relationships that may affect the rest of my life, is crazy. I can feel my life being hi-jacked, one seat at a time.
Let me also update you about Europe. I am super excited for outreach to live out the things we have learned here. The Lord has already given us visions of people, places, churches, and others that we are to meet in our outreaches. He is already breaking in and showing us His plans. As of now, we are planning to be in South France, going out to Amsterdam and possibly Berlin. We will be doing evangelism and discipleship under the guise of “english teachers” and many other roles. We are really hoping that we can be the tip of the spear for real transformation.
Prayer requests:
My back is the best that it’s been in a LONG time. Please continue to pray for it.
I am also still in need of an additional (approx) $3000. I am praying that the Lord will call forth financial partners in this season in my life. We are all absolutely called. If you are reading this, please consider praying and asking the Lord if you are to partner with me.
Please cover me in prayer in this time, as I realize this may be one of the most important transition time in my life.
Miss everyone so dearly,
Michael.
Add comment February 19, 2011 rocthemikee
Everything is different.
Time – 9:33PM Kona
Place – Dorm
Mood – Resolved and Hungry for my Beloved
God has always been the same, but as I begin to slowly see through heavenly reality, everything is becoming different. Slowly earthly reality is fading, as heaven is literally invading my life. Heavenly reality is nothing more than understanding who God is, and understanding who He says we are.
Restoration and Searing of Identity.
I’ve always known that I was a son of God. But the knowledge hadn’t reached down to the core of who I was. As Jonathan Helser (Anointed worship leader, friend of God, and one of my absolute heroes in God’s army) put it, it hadn’t made the 18 inch journey from my head to my heart. Even now, I am not as fully immersed in the sea of sonship as I would like to be, but I have hope that he who began a good work, will complete it.
I am blown away at the reality that nothing has ever been initiated by man. The father saw his prodigal son from far away and ran towards him. He fell on his neck and gave him hugs and kisses of love. It says in the word that He dances and sings over us. The picture is actually more accurately described as “spinning around violently in joy and shrieking in absolute thrill and excitement.” Is that the view I have of God? Do I believe that when I ask for a revelation of love he spins around in circles in excitement? Or do I believe he silently nods, with his arms crossed, and says “Finally, you are getting it…it’s about time…maybe I will hold some back to teach you a lesson for not getting it the first time.” Do I believe that he is more willing to give than I could ever imagine? That the word willing isn’t even close to describing His violent and ferocious desire to pour out on His loved ones? Do I really know the heart of God? These revelations are slowly but surely journeying down into my heart. And I absolutely love it. As he sears this into my heart, I am beginning to lay down more of myself to His Lordship, and becoming a confident son of God. I love being who I was made to be. His son.
Perfect Love Obliterates Fear
This is actually a word that the Lord kept saying in my heart, even before the teachings began. I just kept hearing it over and over again. Even before I heard anything about it, I knew this was something I needed to get. I believe that this is one of the absolute most suffocating yoke around my neck. I have so much fear. Everything from physical, spiritual, mental, and some just straight up silly. I still fear the dark sometimes. It’s not all the time, but there are moments when I get wrecked with fear from darkness. I fear mediocrity. I fear marriage. I fear standing out, because I always felt like I’d be the nail that gets hammered down. I hate having attention for fear of being exposed for all my failures and insecurities. I fear letting people in because I have been rejected so many times in my life. I’m scared of the future. I’m scared of my past coming back to haunt me. I’m scared of not being understood, or not being important to anyone. I’m scared that at the end of my life, there will be no words on my tombstone, because there isn’t anything worth writing about. I fear losing my family and friends. There is so much fear in my life. But today, the Holy Spirit through Jonathan Helser rocked my very being. “The places you were created for greatness is where the enemy will hit you with the most amount of fear. He hits you with fear because he fears who you will become. He hits you with insecurity because he is insecure about what you will do. He hits you with confusion because you will create confusion for Him, when you become what you were made to be.” Moses was afraid of speaking. David was rejected by his own father. Peter denied Christ three times in the span of a day. As these men of God god to know the Father’s heart, things changed. Moses became THE friend of God who spoke on behalf of God. David was accepted by God wholly and was called a man after God’s own heart. Peter became the rock in which Jesus shaped and is continuing to shape his bride. As I understand and receive His perfect love freely, fear has to leave. It is a natural reaction, and honestly it’s exhilarating. Even now I feel my spirit slowly learning to dance on my chains. I am in love.
Prayer Requests!
Pray that these things that I am learning will go to my heart, and not just my head…No turning back, I want to be absolutely exposed for God.
Outreach team has been released, and I will be a part of the Europe team. We will go minister in Amsterdam, Berlin, and Paris…we will be ministering in the red light district, 24-7 Burn ministry, and most importantly…to God’s heart. Most of our team still need funds, including myself. I have slightly less than 1800 dollars (left from paying school fees), and I need $2500 by February 3. And then there will be one more due date with an amount that hasn’t been figured out yet. I need the Lord’s providence! See if you are called in this season to be His hands, as I am called to be His feet.
Continue to pray for my back and full healing!
Footnote: Picture credit to Lisa Kim, she’s amazing.
4 comments January 20, 2011 rocthemikee
The Beginning.
Time – 9:00 PM in Kona
Place – Dorm
Mood – Feels like freshman year again.
I must apologize first and foremost to my YWAM brothers Jasen Chung and Sek Kim. I remember when I first read their blogs I thought that they were…long.
Now I know why.
My time with in Vancouver was hard at first, but it became so sweet in so many ways. I am learning that the darkest places in our lives where we fail to shine Jesus’ light is in our very homes. On the outside…we are perfect Christians…but the minute we step into our homes, we become the monsters that we can be. They say that character is who you are when no one’s looking. Well, for me I realized it’s also when I am with my family. My family would never speak ill of me. They would never let anyone know who I can be, because they love me. But I take advantage of that. And I can be the monster I’d dare not show anyone else.
But the Lord did a healing and started changing me. The work isn’t complete, but I believe He who started a good work…will complete it.
After that, I arrived in Kona, and it has been an absolute blast. I have been getting to know so many people who are going after the very heart and face of God. It’s so good to have a concentrated amount of people who are kindred spirit. But the Lord is teaching me the same things he’s been teaching me back at home…just in a different light. This tells me that everything available here is available anywhere else…claim and believe it!
One of my roommate’s name is Young…and He is just like one of my best friends Daniel Min. He is such a sturdy, grounded man of God. Even though we’re the same age, I get such a “hyung” vibe from him. I’m so glad that I have someone like that here, because I can be such a kid sometime, and I need an older brother to look out for me. Another roommate of mine is Jimmy and he is a bomb roommate. He’s a sports fan just like me, and is such a tender hearted man of God. Love having both of them walking with me. Having Lisa around has been such a blessing as well. Seeing her in this type of community has been such a joy. Also I see Joash everywhere…what more could I ask for?
Prayer requests: Still in need of some funds…Come on someBODY! I have felt pain in my back as bad as it’s been in a long while…The secondary school has been cancelled for this year, so GUIDANCE! And most importantly…to receive everything that Christ died on the cross for…FULLNESS!
LOVE, michael.
2 comments January 9, 2011 rocthemikee
